Just a quick 4.2 mile jog with 30,000 of my best friends on a beautiful Saturday morning! 

Pat’s Run weekend is here! For those of you who don’t know Pat’s Run is a kinda a big deal around these parts. It honor’s Pat Tillman who put his fancy Football Career ( on the ASU team and then went on to play for AZ Cardinals) to join the Army and was killed in Afghanistan. His jersey # was 42 so the race is 4.2 miles.

I (like always) had to work Friday night till 0600 on Saturday morning. The race started at 7 so I went straight from working my 10 hour shift. My friend was set to pick me up right at 6 so I asked my boss if on my lunch break at 0500 if I could change into workout gear to be ready to go. Ha. The things he puts up with.

Pats face

The lighting in the work bathroom is terrible! Yikes. But READY for Pat’s!

They changed the course up this year and it basically went backwards but there were a few more hills this go round.

pr hill 2

I just kept telling myself that these hills and bridges were training for the NYCM!! Everything is training for New York!

pr hill

Plus you can see how packed it is! There’s about 30,000 people running those 4.2 miles. It’s always a crowded crowded race.

I didn’t hit my goal… in fact I did 1:50 min worse than last year! Crossing the finish line at 41:50 minutes. Not awful but not my best. I really really want to work on my speed in the next few months. I have a 10K next Sunday so I’m hoping for a PR!

I met a lady walking to the expo booths and we started chatting and she actually knew Tillman. (He died in 2004.) She was a volleyball coach at ASU and knew him around the gym. She had some really fun stories and showed a side of him I’ve never heard before. Definitely sounded like an interesting guy…

Then it was time to meet up with my friends and hit the road!! I was lucky to start in an earlier corral than them (crucial when there’s a possibility of 30,000 runners/walkers in front of you) and I don’t think they minded too much that I ditched them. We all did really well and had fun! Plus this is the first year they gave out medals. Another on the pile… I just need a place to hang them…

finsih friends

How the numbers all shake out:

Again, I finished in 41:50. Bib 6558. I started my racekeeper a little too early so my number it has are a tad off but my splits:

pr splits

I KEPT telling myself that first half to hold back and to save some energy for the 2nd part but I wasn’t really listening to my own advice. I knew the steepest part of the race was right around mile 2 so I knew I wanted to conserve my energy and go slow over the hill. and go slow I did! I found myself shuffling so slowly I realized walking just would’ve been faster. So I walked. Then tried to recoup as much time on the downhills but what can I say. I was tried and knew another hill was coming! Haha.

Here’s the elevation:

pr elev

All I’m doing now is focusing on the future. We’ll see how the next 10K goes. And I have a year to beat my time! Haha. And of course, all my focus is prepping for NY!

Losing Weight Takes Time But Time Will Pass

In my Pre-calc class, my teach hung a sign next to the clock that read, “Time will pass. Will you?”

I’ve been thinking a lot about this saying lately. I obviously am not  having to “pass” anything anymore but back when I was in my ‘post goal weight but the scale is creeping back up’ funk I would focus on how much time it took to lose 50 pounds. It took me a while. Probably longer than it would take you. Yeah losing weight comes with a sacrifice, yes it can be hard but it also takes patience. 

b-and-a

They say the average is 0.5-2 lbs a week. I think I would say it’s fair for me to lose 1 lb a week. If I have to lose 15 lbs then that’s 15 weeks. That’s almost 4 whole months! That’s freaking April!

So I wouldn’t even try. Huh?

Time will pass. No matter if I eat healthy, exercise, sleep all day or eat pizza at every meal. April will be here before I know it! So I might as well. Maybe I’m the only gal that obsesses over the time table. Maybe it was just another subconscious excuse to go through the Del Taco Drive Thru 1 more time. But I can either lose, maintain or gain weight for the next 15  +/- weeks. The choice is 100% on me.

If you saw my monthly check in post a couple weeks ago, you’ll see that I lost 8 pounds in 4 weeks! So now I’m only 6 lbs away from my “goal” anyway and that feels very doable!

 

I got a B in that class by the way.

 

 

I Am Proud of Who I AM not What I Look Like

In my monthly check in post last week, I said a couple times that I was proud of myself. I’ve been thinking about that word a lot since then and I wanted to clarify what I mean.

I am proud of myself

  • that I am making my health a priority
  • that I am tracking my food even when it’s a donut
  • that I am working through my food anxieties and developing a healthy relationship with food

 

My self worth does NOT depend on

  • the number on the scale
  • if I go over/under my macros or calories
  • if I am “skinny”
  • if I have muscles or loose skin
  • if I run a super fast mile/marathon

 

I have good days and bad days. “Healthy” meals and “cheat” meals. Times where all I want is to eat an entire sheet cake and days when I can step back and look at the big picture and drag my butt off to the gym.

 

1000 Days

 

dc

 

1,000 Days! 

I haven’t had a sip of diet coke for one thousand days. This may not seem like that big a deal to you, but it’s crazy to me. I used to be addicted. I didn’t even realize how addicted I was until I told myself to quit drinking diet coke and found it very hard to stop! I wouldn’t bat an eye at having 4 cans a day. (and no water at all of course.)

I finally managed to kick the habit that doesn’t mean I still don’t think about it! Alllll this time later and I still think about it. It’s normally when I see someone with a dt. coke and I think about how I used to be. I cannot believe it was 1,000 days ago. It was a real struggle to tell myself not to drink one. I would literally have to tell myself no. One time a waiter confused me with my sister and put her soda in front of me and I was only half joking when I told both of them to “get that away from me.” Even now, the times that it pops into my head a little part of me thinks, “just one after all this time wouldn’t be so bad.” Addict.

dt-coke

 

I think some people think you can’t be so addicted to DC or some people might think this is silly but it’s something I honestly have to deal with as part of my weight/health journey. 1000 days…

I am 1000% proud!!

 

Monthy Check in: February

1 month into 2017! It’s been a good month and exciting things are coming my way this year. I didn’t really make a “new years resolution” but I did recommit to healthy eating and I’ve been tracking pretty well this month and am proud of that. I’m not 100% but I’m really only aiming for 80% and I think I hit that goal on the head so I’m doing okay.

I don’t think it’s a secret to anyone that in the past year since hitting my “goal weight” I’ve been creeping back up the scale and falling back into old habits. Weight loss and healthy eating is an on going journey and never a straight descending line on a chart so I’ve given myself a break a little bit but that doesn’t mean I want to get anywhere close to where I started!! So I’m back on the wagon.

b-and-a

On Jan 5th I weighed in for my new starting weight and clocked in at 159.8. Still lower than what I weighed in high school but a whole 20 pounds heavier than my lowest! I always kept 145 as the “goal” so still 14 lbs up from that! (I’m pretty much sticking to that 145 goal again but keeping in mind that I am and my body is more than just a number and plenty of things affect the number on the scale. It’s  a guideline not a measurement of self worth!!)

All day yesterday I was tempted! It was a really rough go. Donuts are my very very fav and a new donut shop opened here in town with fancy pants donuts and TWO coworkers brought in boxes of them.

donuts

I sent a text to my gym bud/BFF looking for support and he was beyond unhelpful haha! Then he kept sending me pictures of my FAV foods (he knows me way too well!) The conversation ended with my just sending him the middle finger emoji! Haha. Thanks Al.

al-coon

al-con

I did have about 5 bites or so of all different flavors and they were all beyond delicious. Someday I’m going to have to go back there when I have the extra macros and indulge!!

So after that mental exercise all day, this morning it was time to step on the scale:

151-3

151.3

I will take that! I know the first week is always a big number (water weight) and next month it wont be as big a number but I’m proud of myself!

Measurements this morning clocked in at

pre-yog
Right before I went off to Hot  Yoga! 

36″ Bust

28″ Waist (around the smallest part)

38″ Hips (around the widest part)

 

I know that consistency is so so important so that’s my focus. Keep tracking, keep putting my health high up on the priority list and we will see what Feb brings!

 

Phoenix Marathon Update

mesa-phoenix-marathon-logo

After much deliberation, I finally, officially decided to drop down to the half marathon for Phoenix (now the Mesa-Phx (since 0% of the race is actually in Phx?)) I honestly just wasn’t ready or training the way I’d like. Yes there was laziness on my part but there was also sickness and injuries that knocked me outta the game.

I decided to just focus on running the best half I could and really wanted to do well! I was proud of my performance at the RnR half considering I woke up sick 2 days before and I felt really good and kept a good pace throughout the race. I know I’m a slow poke, but I had a good finish time (for me) at 2:27.

phx-2016
Even on FB I said 2:26

Then a couple nights ago I was cleaning up my desk (where I keep my bibs just in a pile…) and looked at my bib from last year’s Phx half and I’d written 2:26 as my finish time. Well, I actually double chked that today and it has me at 2:24!  Gun time was 2:26, rookie mistake.

phx-results
sorry it’s so small…

So that’s my PR as of today but I realllly want to beat that this year! I liked the Phx course and the finish line/ zone was amazing! It had so much food and vendors and exhibits it was like another expo but even better because everything was free! haha.

Goal is to take a whole 5 min off my PR. I’m going to 2:19! #under220

 

 

 

 

I ate a Donut! And it was okay (the action, not the taste. It tasted delicious!)

I was overweight for a long time. There are psychological affects that linger when you’re constantly scanning and finding you’re the biggest girl in the room. I’ve had an unhealthy relationship with food for so long; it got better when I finally took control and lost the weight but there are some old habits I’ve found myself falling back on.

before-and-after

Just recently I’ve decided to address some of these issues head on. One of them is my binge eating.I don’t think it would surprise anyone to learn that a girl who was almost 200lbs would binge but even 40 lbs lighter, I still have these episodes. I am not 100% comfortable getting into specifics but it’s something that’s there in my life and something I have to deal with. Like that HIMYM episode about baggage. Well my carry on reads “binge eater.”

Image result for himym baggage

I was talking to someone recently who understand what I’m going through and he suggested this exercise to me. He told me to eat one donut and my response was, “I’ve never eaten just one donut.” Here’s what I did:

After work, a time when I’m tired and my cravings for junk are in full force, I went to my favorite donut place, Bosa. Donuts are a huge “trigger food” for me. I told myself I was going to buy one and only one donut, so when I went in I chose very carefully. I wasn’t allowing myself to have alllll the flavors so I had to pick a good one. I went with the kind with peanuts on top!

donut

Then I ate it there. I didn’t eat in the car. I didn’t eat it at home in secret. I ate it out in the open because what I was doing was okay. It wasn’t shameful. And I savored every bite. I didn’t watch TV or listen to a podcast. I didn’t go on FB or IG. I paid attention to what I was eating.

And I told myself what I was doing was a good thing! I repeated it in my head. It didn’t matter how many calories, grams of fat, grams of sugar this food had. I wasn’t “ruining” or “cheating” on my diet. I wasn’t a failure for giving into temptation or going off the rails. I was 100% in control. And it felt really good.