Eating Out and Battling Food Anxiety

So far I’ve been tracking and really on top of my eating habits and that feels great. But sometimes I get into ‘all or nothing’ mode and let my food anxiety get the better of me. Sometimes it’s dang hard to be social when you’re trying not to eat junk. Sometimes it’s just easier to stay home and cook what you know than risk the temptation etc of eating out.

When my dad called and asked if I wanted to join him and my brother’s family for dinner, I jumped at the chance of course but he told me he hadn’t decided where to go. He texted me the day of the dinner telling me where to meet them, Texas Roadhouse. He texted me during the day when I was sleeping but woke up and half-asleep read his text and immediately started worrying about what I would order. Luckily I was familiar with the menu and vaguely sure what would be good choices but not until then I was I able to fall back asleep.

Sorry for the bad quality. I tried to snap it fast and knew it was rough, but didn’t know just how rough!

I could’ve have made better choices but I think I did pretty good. Part of the trouble is not only do I pay attention to macros, I have to watch what my body can/cannot digest.

I stayed away from the bread, amazingly and stuck to water to drink. I ordered a house salad with no cheese and there was trouble with the dressing (seriously, I almost brought my own!) but it worked out well enough. 6oz sirloin and side of green beans. At first I wasn’t thrilled about the idea of green beans and ordered it because it was the best option for me health wise (there is a fresh mixed veg option but that has broccoli which my body can’t break down although healthy, not healthy for me, ya know.) So I settled for green beans but honestly they were delicious! They were cooked with bacon and I’m guessing butter so not 100% ‘clean’ but it may have been my favorite part of the meal. I’ll definitely be happy to order them again.

I don’t want to let my food anxiety take over my life. I don’t want to be a hermit that stays home every night, like Rizzo 😉 and be scared of backsliding but I also want to make healthy choices and not indulge/binge just because I’m out. It’s a balance for sure that I’m still trying to find!

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What Did I Eat Before the RnR Half? And a little after?

I have a very delicate constitution. And by that I mean I get nauseated very easily. I think I’ve been nauseated at least part of the day every day since I was 15. That’s 14 years now of dealing with this sh.. situation. You’d think I’d be better at it! So I try to be very caution all race week but especially the day before a race and race day. I know I’m not the only runner with a pre-race meal ritual!

So Saturday morning I made my healthy take on an English breakfast. 1 fried egg, 2 turkey sausages and some mushrooms sauteed in avocado oil


and of course all the meds! Pictured here is echinacea and mucinex. I also took so much vitamin C that day. To say I was fighting that cold was an understatement. meds

After the expo, my friend and I went to Postino. I justified it by saying I needed the carbs haha. A bruschetta board! On the left, the seasonal topping made of mushrooms and I forget what cheese. It was delicious and probably my favorite. I almost didn’t order it because ‘more mushrooms?’ but I’m glad I did!

Then left to right, apple, brie and fig; salmon with pesto; burrata with bacon, arugula and tomato. Everything tasted so good and I ate about 3/4 pictured and took the rest home. postina

For dinner, I wasn’t very hungry and didn’t have a ton of time before I wanted to go to bed early so I skipped the meal I planned and ate the rest of my bruschetta and about 4 oz of plain sweet potato. I crossed my fingers that the bruschetta wouldn’t upset my stomach during the night!

Bright and early Sunday/ Race day. I made some oatmeal that Copper was very interested in. None for him. And I chugged another bottle of water.


At the start line, I brought a banana and a gluten free stinger waffle. Are those waffles getting sweeter?? I ate about half of it before I couldn’t take another bite. But my stomach felt good the whole way!!

Along the course, I took 2 energy jelly bellies at mile 4 and 6 and then a starburst about mile 10. No Gatorade for me (my stomach cannot handle it!) And i went to about every other water station.

After the race, I couldn’t eat anything for about 2 hours but once I did, I was RAVENOUS! I ate a bagel, chocolate milk, sushi, soup, oh gosh I can’t even remember what else!


What Even Is Healthy Food?? You’re gonna feel REAL bad for me in a minute.


It’s pathetic really.

Now I am not saying I eat this way 100% but I do TRY. (Guys, it’s hard.) So today I was wasting time at work, tooling around on Buzzfeed when I ran into an article titled 31 Delicious Packaged Foods That Aren’t Actually Terrible For You. 

I read it. And wanted to simultaneously laugh and cry. Here’s the thing. Now the article is admitting that these foods aren’t perfect but they’re seemingly touted as on the healthy side of the scale and I cannot eat so so many of them. So they’re not healthy for me. Maybe they are for the writer. Maybe they are for you. But not for me.

(Also things that say gluten-free or Vegan or BPA free. whatever label they can slap on. [or just cause you bought it at Whole Foods] THIS DOESN’T AUTOMATICALLY MEAN IT’S HEALTHY. Rant for another day)

The point of this diatribe is to remind you all to do you. Learn what works for your body and your life! (I know a girl that eats ice cream for breakfast. It works for her. Lucky girl.)

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Here’s what Buzzfeed took into consideration when making the list:

• Calories per serving
• Reasonability of serving size
• Ratio of carbs to fiber (ideally no more than 10 grams of carb for every 1 gram of fiber)
• Ratio of protein to fat (ideally no less than 2 grams of protein for every 1 grams of fat)
• Amount of added sugar
• Amount of sodium
• Number of ingredients (the fewer, the better)
• Recognizability of ingredients (the more familiar/pronounceable, the better)

I’m going strictly by ingredients for MY list.

SkinnyPop 100-Calorie Baggies

Ingredients: Popcorn, sunflower oil and salt.
No corn 

2. Popchips


Ingredients: Dried potato, rice flour, sunflower and/or safflower oil, potato starch, sea salt, salt.

No potato (white or sweet) 

3. Dang Lightly Salted Coconut Chips YES!

Dang Lightly Salted Coconut Chips

Ingredients: Coconut, sea salt.

4. Garden of Eatin’ Baked Blue Tortilla Chips

Garden of Eatin' Baked Blue Tortilla Chips

Ingredients: Organic blue corn, organic brown flaxseed, organic soy grits, organic canola oil and/or organic safflower oil and/or organic sunflower oil, sea salt.

No corn, no soy (dunno what grits are but…. no soy so) 

5. Triscuit Thin Crisps

Triscuit Thin Crisps

Ingredients: Whole grain wheat, vegetable oil (soybean or canola oil), sea salt.

No wheat 

6. Mini Babybel cheese

Mini Babybel cheese

Ingredients: Pasteurized cultured milk, salt, microbial enzymes.

No dairy 

7. Saffron Road Crunchy Chickpeas YES! 

Saffron Road Crunchy Chickpeas

Ingredients: Organic chickpeas, organic expeller pressed canola and/or organic sunflower oil, sea salt, organic rosemary extract, ascorbic acid.

8. Special K Cracker Chips

Special K Cracker Chips

Ingredients: Potatoes, potato starch, canola oil with TBHQ for freshness, rice flour, oat fiber, degerminated yellow corn meal, sugar, contains 2% or less of sea salt, salt, monoglycerides, whole wheat flour, soy flour, whey.

 No potato, corn, sugar, wheat, soy, whey 

9. Bare Apple Chips

Bare Apple Chips

Ingredients: Apples.

No apples… 

10. Newman’s O’s

Newman's O's

Ingredients: Organic unbleached wheat flour, organic powdered, organic sugar, organic palm fruit oil, sunflower oil, cocoa, organic invert syrup, natural flavors, sodium bicarbonate (leavening), unsweetened chocolate, salt, soy lecithin.

No wheat, sugar, organic invert syrup– which is more sugar
And if you’re using 100 days of Real Food standards, no soy lecithin 

11. Oreo Thins

Oreo Thins

Ingredients: Sugar, unbleached enriched flour, palm and/or canola oil, high fructose corn syrup, salt, soy lecithin, baking soda, peppermint oil, artificial color, artificial flavor.

No sugar, wheat/flour, high fructose corn syrup (again, another term for sugar)
and yikes w/ words like artificial color/ flavor 

12. Breyer’s Natural Vanilla Ice Cream

Breyer's Natural Vanilla Ice Cream

Ingredients: Milk, cream, sugar, vegetable gum, natural flavor.

No dairy, sugar 

13. Edy’s Slow Churned Ice Cream

Edy's Slow Churned Ice Cream

Ingredients: Non-fat milk, cream, sugar, corn syrup, chocolaty chips, whey protein, buttermilk, molasses, acacia gum, carob bean gum, guar gum, yellow 5, blue 1, carrageenan, natural flavor

okay.. no dairy (so, milk, cream, buttermilk, whey) sugar & corn syrup 
I personally want to stay away from yellow 5 and blue 1. All the numbered colors. 

14. Larabar YES! 


Ingredients: Dates, peanuts, sea salt


15. Clif Organic Trail Mix bars

Clif Organic Trail Mix bars

Ingredients: Organic peanuts, organic tapioca syrup, organic almonds, organic dark chocolate, organic coating, organic roasted soybeans, organic rice crisps, organic peanut butter, organic inulin, organic sunflower oil, sea salt, mixed tocopherols (Vitamin E compounds).

So close! No soy 

16. Quest Protein Bars ???

Quest Protein Bars

Ingredients: Protein blend, soluble corn fiber, almonds, water, unsweetened chocolate, natural flavors, erythritol, cocoa butter, palm oil, sea salt, calcium carbonate, sucralose, Stevia

No corn? These may be be prefect, but I do eat Quest bars all the time. 

17. KIND bars (Nuts & Spices line)

KIND bars (Nuts & Spices line)

Ingredients: Almonds, cashews, peanuts, honey, glucose syrup, chicory root fiber, rice flour, sea salt, soy lecithin, sugar.

 No glucose syrup and sugar. 

18. Fage Total 2% Split Cup

Fage Total 2% Split Cup

Ingredients: Strained yogurt, live active cultures, strawberries, cane sugar, water, corn starch, strawberry juice concentrate, lemon juice concentrate, natural flavors.

No dairy, cane sugar, corn starch, lemon juice concentrate 

19. Stonyfield Organic Greek Whole Milk Yogurt

Stonyfield Organic Greek Whole Milk Yogurt

Ingredients: Cultured pasteurized organic whole milk, organic cane sugar, non-GMO corn starch, organic natural vanilla flavor, organic carob bean gum, organic vanilla bean, gellan gum.

No dairy, sugar, corn starch 

20. Dannon Whole Milk Yogurt

Dannon Whole Milk Yogurt

Ingredients: Cultured grade A milk, cane sugar, water, corn starch, cherries, less than 1% of fruit juice and vegetable juice, natural flavor, carob bean gum, lemon juice concentrate, vitamin D3, milk calcium.

No dairy, cane sugar, corn starch, lemon juice concentrate 

21. Special K Protein

Special K Protein

Ingredients: Whole grain wheat, wheat gluten, sugar, rice, soy protein isolate, wheat bran, defatted soy grits, contains 2% or less of salt, cinnamon, malt flavor, L-lysine monohydrochloride, soy lecithin, sucralose, BHT for freshness. Vitamins and Minerals: Reduced iron, niacinamide, vitamin B6, vitamin B1, vitamin A palmitate, vitamin B2, folic acid, vitamin B12, vitamin D3.

Whoo boy. No wheat or wheat gluten, sugar, soy protein isolate, wheat bran, defatted soy grits 
And WHAT is L-lysine monohydrochloride?? pass… 


22. Kashi Heart to Heart Honey Toasted Oat Cereal

Kashi Heart to Heart Honey Toasted Oat Cereal

Ingredients: Whole oat flour, degerminated yellow cornmeal, invert cane syrup, oat fiber, honey, salt, cinnamon*, expeller pressed canola oil, ginger, cardamom, natural flavor, mixed tocopherols (vitamin E) for freshness.

No oat flour, cornmeal, cane syrup, oat fiber 

23. Kix


Ingredients: Whole grain corn, corn meal, sugar, Corn bran, salt, brown sugar syrup, trisodium phosphate, vitamin E.

No corn or meal or bran, sugar, brown sugar syup

24. Luvo frozen meals

Luvo frozen meals

Ingredients: Cooked white meat chicken, water, cooked black beans, tomatoes, tomatillo, queso quesadilla, tomatoes, yellow corn meal, corn, red bell peppers, cilantro, citric acid, coriander, cumin, dehydrated garlic, dehydrated onion, garlic, green bell peppers, green chili pepper, green onion, guar gum, jalapeño peppers, onions, orange juice concentrate, oregano, paprika, paprika extract, parmesan cheese, parsley, poblano peppers, potato starch, red onions, roasted pumpkin seeds, seasoning, spices, sunflower oil, thyme, tomato paste, xanthan gum, yellow corn masa flour.

ooookay, No queso, corn meal, corn, orange juice concentrate, parmesan, potato starch, pumpkin seeds, corn masa flour

25. Amy’s Single-Serve Spinach Pizza (Light in Sodium)

Amy's Single-Serve Spinach Pizza (Light in Sodium)

Ingredients: Organic unbleached wheat flour with organic wheat bran and organic wheat germ, filtered water, organic tomato puree, part-skim mozzarella cheese, organic spinach, extra virgin olive oil, feta cheese, organic onions, organic tofu (filtered water, organic soybeans, nigari, honey, organic garlic, spices, sea salt, expeller pressed high oleic safflower and/or sunflower oil, organic evaporated cane syrup, black pepper, yeast.

no flour, bran or germ, no mozzarella, feta, tofu, cane syrup 

26. Newman’s Own Roasted Vegetable Thin & Crispy Pizza

Newman's Own Roasted Vegetable Thin & Crispy Pizza

Ingredients: Multigrain crust, sauce, low-moisture part-skim mozzarella cheese, fire roasted bell peppers, mushrooms, fire roasted red onion, parmesan cheese.

no whatever multigrain is, mozzarella, parmesan 

27. Lean Cuisine Thin Crust Margherita Pizza

Lean Cuisine Thin Crust Margherita Pizza

Ingredients: Enriched flour, water, sugar, soybean oil, yeast, olive oil, salt, tomatoes, tomatoes, reduced fat mozzarella cheese and cornstarch, low moisture part skim mozzarella cheese, onions, tomato paste, 2% or less of garlic puree, seasoning, garlic powder, spices, natural flavor

No flour, sugar, mozzarella, cornstarch 

28. Saffron Road Frozen Bowls YES!*

Saffron Road Frozen Bowls


Ingredients: White rice: white rice, water. Ginger vegetable mix: snow peas, carrots, water chestnuts. Salmon filet: wild Alaska salmon. Sesame ginger sauce: water, tamari, cane sugar, ginger puree, native corn starch, toasted sesame oil, garlic puree, expeller pressed canola oil, lemon juice concentrate, sesame seeds, cayenne pepper.

*This one surprised me! It’s like the Quest bars. No cornstarch or lemon juice, but really for the most part, this one works. But of course, depends on the flavor. 

29. EVOL Foods Single Serve Meals

EVOL Foods Single Serve Meals

Serving size: 1 bowl

Ingredients: Cooked black beans, cooked white rice, bell peppers, grilled beef, cilantro, corn, cheddar cheddar cheese, canola oil, lime juice from concentrate, extra virgin olive oil, sea salt, garlic, spices.

No corn, cheddar, lime juice 

30. Amy’s Tofu Scramble With Vegetables & Hash Browns

Amy's Tofu Scramble With Vegetables & Hash Browns

Ingredients: (Vegan) organic tofu, organic hash browns, organic tomatoes, organic spinach, organic zucchini, organic onions, organic mushrooms, organic extra virgin olive oil, organic carrots, sea salt, organic garlic, nutritional yeast, spices, organic black pepper.

No tofu (soy), hash browns (potatoes) 

31. Lean Cuisine Marketplace Chicken With Almonds

Lean Cuisine Marketplace Chicken With Almonds

Ingredients: Blanched enriched long grain parboiled rice, cooked chicken tenderloin, water, green beans, broccoli, brown sugar, yellow carrots, almonds, 2% or less of soy sauce, modified cornstarch, sugar, dehydrated soy sauce, ginger puree, soybean oil, brown sugar syrup, apple cider vinegar, caramel color, citric acid.

No broccoli, brown sugar, soy sauce, corn starch, sugar (again, this flavor in particular) 

4!  I can eat 4 out of 31 products. 4….

And another rant for another day is these fake ingredients. Yellow 5 and trisodium phosphate and artificial flavor. Plus sugar in everything! And fancy terms for sugar. It still counts. Oh well….

YIKES BIKES. Someday I’ll have to talk about what I can and do eat!


Happy Healthy Halloween

Wanna see something scary?


It’s supposed to look like this.

I had a “scary movie” night the other night (and by scary I mean, I think Monster’s Inc. is pushing it!) and wanted to provide healthy themed snacks. I didn’t want the cookie/pizza part so it’s just fruit on a white cutting board. It’s not pretty. But the fruit was still good. 🙂


“Pumpkin” deviled eggs. (I didn’t look up the recipe as to how they made theirs so orange. I just sprinkled paprika into the mix with spicy brown mustard. Yikes!


And a veggie skeleton (with a side of hummus for dipping- cuz yum!)

I think all of these look like they belong on Pinterest Fails, but they we’re healthy, easy-ish, and still delish!

In a holiday where there’s candy EVERYwhere, cookies and brownies and cupcakes… it can get real easy to let your health take a back seat. I’m determined to finish out the year with my head on straight and not get distracted! But that doesn’t mean you can’t indulge every now and then, or that you have to miss all the fun!

There’s a lot you can do with fruit!

  • Black and orange fruit kabobs with blackberries and cantelope
  • orange and pineapple “candy corn” cups


  • stuffed orange pepper jack-o-lanterns
  • turkey chili!
  • grilled cheese or pancakes using cookie cutters



1 Bag 3 Dinners

Before I did the Long Beach Half, I talked about my go-to “1 bag 3 dinners” plan so nothing goes to waste for a single gal like me.

Meal prep was Sunday and it wasn’t till after it was all over that I thought to talk about what I prepped but it was again a 1 bag of groceries deal that I was pretty happy with.


(I am really really really not a food blogger!)


Here’s what I made

Quinoa salad with cherry tomatoes, red onion, red pepper and cilantro

Grilled Veggies (that I’ll put in a wrap or quinoa bowl with hummus) and I grilled red pepper, red onion, zucchini and mushroom

Frittata with sauteed red pepper, mushrooms, red onion, zucchini, spinach and bacon.

I also grilled up some chicken while I was going the veggies to pair with some veggies, and I made a little extra quinoa to make into a sweet porridge type deal in the morning.

Now I just have to eat what I prepped and not let it spoil in the fridge while I go get takeaway!!


Meal Prepping a Week in Advance


I am already so sad to leave this little guy at the pet hotel on Friday. He doesn’t know what’s coming but I’m soaking in every minute I have with him. He loves it there (everyone knows my little 3 legged dog and they spoil him!) so I’m not worried which is a great feeling! I’m sure gonna miss him!!

I got all my snacks and meals ready for race weekend. Traveling for a race is tricky because I obviously want to eat healthy/ food that I know my body can handle but I’ll be on the road and I got a cheap hotel with no fridge option so I’m going to be packing whatever works in a cooler! I’m very not picky about my food temperature so this isn’t a problem.

I had all my meals planned and ready to go when I realized I’m coming back late-ish Monday and I have to be up and about all day Tuesday! 2 appointments before work and then a sixty hour work week. Yeah, I’m not happy about that. (Who wants to be a 911 dispatcher???) So I realized I need to meal plan for all next week as well!

I ran to the store and  bought a bunch of ingredients for meals I knew I could freeze and pull out next week as needed so it didn’t get old sitting in my fridge all weekend untouched.

I think I’ve talked about this grocery list of mine before but it’s so simple and easy when cooking for 1.


I ended up buying 1 lb of chicken and 1 lb of ground beef. 2 bell peppers, 1 onion, 1 box of mushrooms and baby carrots. I ended up making chicken stir fry, chicken fajitas, and beef “foil dinners” made in the crock pot! I love that it’s almost all the same veggies just dressed up differently so it doesn’t taste like I’m eating the same everyday. But I used ALL the veggies so nothing is going to waste. (plus you can use so many different veggies. Whatever you want. Especially in the stir fry and foil dinners. Cabbage, broccoli, zucchini… it’s so great!)

Plus I grilled some extra fillets of chicken that I can pull out of the freezer as needed and I’m ready to go!

Fitness Motivation:

I’m all ready for race weekend! I’m set up to have a healthy (& very busy!) week next week!

Big news and a funny (actually not…) story

I started off my day yesterday getting my certification in my nutrition course. What what!


Then I raced off to the gym before work. Deadlifts and bench presses today. The gym was FILLED with boys and there I was benching right next to them. #girlswholift!!!

Guys, I want glutes! 6 rounds (because that’s all I had time for…) 10 curtsy squats, 10 barbell rows, max double unders in 1 min and 1 min rest. I whipped my arms with the speed rope. OUCH!


After the gym, I gave myself an hour to drive to my work building, shower, change and get cute for the day. It felt like plenty of time.  That is until my usual 10 minute commute to work turned into 35!! I had just enough time to park my car, change my clothes, stuff my lunch in the fridge and sit my sweaty behind down at my desk. Sweat-drenched hair and no make up. Super cute, Lindsay.