I’m a little Scared of Halloween

Halloween has always been a pretty big day for me. I love this time of year and Halloween and Thanksgiving are my favorite holidays. As a kid, of course I loved the candy and trick or treating. I’ve always loved getting dressed up and chose my costumes with some intent!

In 2007, (WOW that sounds like forever ago!) I met my now ex boyfriend on Halloween, while dressed as Boo from Monster’s Inc ;). We dated for 3 years. When we broke up, Halloween lost a little bit of the magic as it was now an anniversary of something that stung just a little.

But I moved on. And last year, 2015, I made my then boyfriend do the Haunted 5K with me. My love, my fav sport and my fav holiday all bundled together for a great day. Oh and I was dressed as my fav animal- a shark, and he was a shark bite victim.

I sewed it while I was at work! Lol 

We broke up 8 days later…

So this year, I’m in a weird head space. I went back and forth for a long time on whether I wanted to do the Haunted 5K again (this time alone) and then found out it was a virtual run only and I felt like I was off the hook.

My life today is not what I expected it to be this time last year.  But here I am, trying to make the most with what I’ve got. I live a very blessed life; I am fully aware of that. But it’s just not where I thought I would be at 29. I’m not sure any of this is health/running related other than I did a 5K a year ago! Part of me wishes, I could do it again this year to kind of wash that man right out of my running/Halloween hair. But there is still the virtual race. Should I do it?

If anyone asks me my favorite Broadway play (which since that’s basically all I listen to, I actually do get asked pretty regularly) I always answer Aida. It’s beautiful and so beyond sad I can hardly even listen to it!  But there is a line Aida sings to Radames  that I think about a lot.

“If you don’t like your fate, change it. You are your own master, there are no shackles on you. So don’t expect any pity or understanding from this humble palace slave.”

There is still a special place in my heart for Halloween but the walls are a bit cracked.

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Luckily, Thanksgiving holds no ghosts of boyfriends past memories for me and I’m all signed up to do the turkey trot!!





Happy Healthy Halloween

Wanna see something scary?


It’s supposed to look like this.

I had a “scary movie” night the other night (and by scary I mean, I think Monster’s Inc. is pushing it!) and wanted to provide healthy themed snacks. I didn’t want the cookie/pizza part so it’s just fruit on a white cutting board. It’s not pretty. But the fruit was still good. 🙂


“Pumpkin” deviled eggs. (I didn’t look up the recipe as to how they made theirs so orange. I just sprinkled paprika into the mix with spicy brown mustard. Yikes!


And a veggie skeleton (with a side of hummus for dipping- cuz yum!)

I think all of these look like they belong on Pinterest Fails, but they we’re healthy, easy-ish, and still delish!

In a holiday where there’s candy EVERYwhere, cookies and brownies and cupcakes… it can get real easy to let your health take a back seat. I’m determined to finish out the year with my head on straight and not get distracted! But that doesn’t mean you can’t indulge every now and then, or that you have to miss all the fun!

There’s a lot you can do with fruit!

  • Black and orange fruit kabobs with blackberries and cantelope
  • orange and pineapple “candy corn” cups


  • stuffed orange pepper jack-o-lanterns
  • turkey chili!
  • grilled cheese or pancakes using cookie cutters



Happy 4th of July: Eating food for America

Happy Independence Day!!

I hope everyone had a great day and got to celebrate by listening to Hamilton. Since I’m a 911 dispatcher and what’s a holiday even, I get to work a 12 hour shift! Today is 1 of the busiest days of the year for PD. Tied with New Years Eve.

I hate this game


I made sure to get in a good workout before I went to work because….


We had a HUGE potluck. Yes there are 2 kinds of chips on my plate. My contribution was watermelon. I tried to be a teensy bit healthy with that. ( I ate some before the picture. I also ate some raspberry bundt cake…)


Rep’ing the blue dress & taking a bathroom selfie. For America.