So far I’ve been tracking and really on top of my eating habits and that feels great. But sometimes I get into ‘all or nothing’ mode and let my food anxiety get the better of me. Sometimes it’s dang hard to be social when you’re trying not to eat junk. Sometimes it’s just easier to stay home and cook what you know than risk the temptation etc of eating out.
When my dad called and asked if I wanted to join him and my brother’s family for dinner, I jumped at the chance of course but he told me he hadn’t decided where to go. He texted me the day of the dinner telling me where to meet them, Texas Roadhouse. He texted me during the day when I was sleeping but woke up and half-asleep read his text and immediately started worrying about what I would order. Luckily I was familiar with the menu and vaguely sure what would be good choices but not until then I was I able to fall back asleep.
I could’ve have made better choices but I think I did pretty good. Part of the trouble is not only do I pay attention to macros, I have to watch what my body can/cannot digest.
I stayed away from the bread, amazingly and stuck to water to drink. I ordered a house salad with no cheese and there was trouble with the dressing (seriously, I almost brought my own!) but it worked out well enough. 6oz sirloin and side of green beans. At first I wasn’t thrilled about the idea of green beans and ordered it because it was the best option for me health wise (there is a fresh mixed veg option but that has broccoli which my body can’t break down although healthy, not healthy for me, ya know.) So I settled for green beans but honestly they were delicious! They were cooked with bacon and I’m guessing butter so not 100% ‘clean’ but it may have been my favorite part of the meal. I’ll definitely be happy to order them again.
I don’t want to let my food anxiety take over my life. I don’t want to be a hermit that stays home every night, like Rizzo 😉 and be scared of backsliding but I also want to make healthy choices and not indulge/binge just because I’m out. It’s a balance for sure that I’m still trying to find!